MIKI NITADORI
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    • Hale 2010 / 2023
    • Odyssey : reflect Exhibition / Installation 2014-2020
    • Odyssey : reflect orginal works 2013 -2015
    • Odyssey : reflect artist book 2014 - 2018
    • A-lien Pacific 2018
    • Post-script 2013 - 2018
    • Gratitude 2017
    • Triumph 2004
    • seesaw spotting 1997-2001
    • Catherine's Pier 2017
    • Transform part one 2010
    • Looking for "tree in the sun" 2010
    • Blond Ambition 2008
    • Combat : Manual for daily survival original works 2003 -2008
    • Combat exhibition 2008
    • Mini video 2007, 2010
    • Paradise lost 2000, 2005
    • project propositions
      • Ecology & waste
      • Textile as a form of Cultural heritage & Community
  • Participate & Collaborate
    • Timelesshugs: August - December 2015
    • Timelesshugs: January - February 2016
    • Timelesshugs: Arles 2016
    • Timeless hugs: Bandstand
    • Combat in progress 2008
    • A-lien cuisine 2018
    • Aloha Phantasm 2015
    • Humility Quest 2014
    • one night in the gallery 2015
    • Mini dictionary of aqua-humility 2015
    • Slapping 2015
    • Slurp piece : Eat noodle or die 2015
    • I am humility 2015
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  • Artist statement
  • Organization & Curation
    • Photography?Why?
    • L'anti chambre
    • Watashitachi-Nous
    • Tohoku
  • Community, Residency & Workshops
    • Samsara in Arcadia
    • Writing of light
    • Combat: lockdown
    • Aloha
    • Creating an exhibition
    • Tigers, lions, dragons, dolphins, rising sun and beautiful moon shining
    • Big scare
    • Combat: Iolani
    • One boy and twenty girls
    • Sing & See
    • Workshop & Conferences
  • Visual works
    • Hale 2010 / 2023
    • Odyssey : reflect Exhibition / Installation 2014-2020
    • Odyssey : reflect orginal works 2013 -2015
    • Odyssey : reflect artist book 2014 - 2018
    • A-lien Pacific 2018
    • Post-script 2013 - 2018
    • Gratitude 2017
    • Triumph 2004
    • seesaw spotting 1997-2001
    • Catherine's Pier 2017
    • Transform part one 2010
    • Looking for "tree in the sun" 2010
    • Blond Ambition 2008
    • Combat : Manual for daily survival original works 2003 -2008
    • Combat exhibition 2008
    • Mini video 2007, 2010
    • Paradise lost 2000, 2005
    • project propositions
      • Ecology & waste
      • Textile as a form of Cultural heritage & Community
  • Participate & Collaborate
    • Timelesshugs: August - December 2015
    • Timelesshugs: January - February 2016
    • Timelesshugs: Arles 2016
    • Timeless hugs: Bandstand
    • Combat in progress 2008
    • A-lien cuisine 2018
    • Aloha Phantasm 2015
    • Humility Quest 2014
    • one night in the gallery 2015
    • Mini dictionary of aqua-humility 2015
    • Slapping 2015
    • Slurp piece : Eat noodle or die 2015
    • I am humility 2015
  • Contact
Paradises lost , Polaroid 600, instant film camera, unique piece. 2000

Paradise lost  2000,2005

Daily for one month, I photographed with Polaroid 600 instant film.
These images trace fragmented memories, from childhood up to the present.
This is now a past which can be only found within.


People tell me that this place doesn't exist any more.
They say it changed and it isn't the way it used to be.

I wonder if it was like this when I took the photographs.
I wonder if it was ever the same for everyone, how they lived and how they had a relationship to the place.

Was it like this when we were children? Maybe.
My childhood memories were playing basketball, eating samin, feeling constantly alone, finding comfort only in older people and fearing getting beaten up by other girls. I cried out of joy when I got on the plane to leave this place, because I wouldn't have to live this reality any more. I learned here what it was to be an outsider. A different social structure existed, and living wasn't as I thought it would be.
However, I came back to this place more often than my native land, and it became a place where I found comfort both among my elders and alone.
I lived the most important moments of my life here, not only in my childhood but also in adulthood. When I was dragging my body, barely able to stand on my feet, coming back to this place healed me. When my soul was profoundly within a hard shell and could not face tomorrow, the nature in silence, physically healed me. 
Daily I see, feel and long for this place that only exists in my mind.
You may be interested in
Transform part one
Triumph
Combat : Manual for daily survival
Seesawspotting
interface
Combat mini video
Looking for "tree in the sun"
Combat exhibtion
Water field
odyssey : reflect installation, extract reading & dance No no boy by John Okada (French)
Gratitude
Blond Ambition

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  • Home
  • News
  • Profile
  • Artist statement
  • Organization & Curation
    • Photography?Why?
    • L'anti chambre
    • Watashitachi-Nous
    • Tohoku
  • Community, Residency & Workshops
    • Samsara in Arcadia
    • Writing of light
    • Combat: lockdown
    • Aloha
    • Creating an exhibition
    • Tigers, lions, dragons, dolphins, rising sun and beautiful moon shining
    • Big scare
    • Combat: Iolani
    • One boy and twenty girls
    • Sing & See
    • Workshop & Conferences
  • Visual works
    • Hale 2010 / 2023
    • Odyssey : reflect Exhibition / Installation 2014-2020
    • Odyssey : reflect orginal works 2013 -2015
    • Odyssey : reflect artist book 2014 - 2018
    • A-lien Pacific 2018
    • Post-script 2013 - 2018
    • Gratitude 2017
    • Triumph 2004
    • seesaw spotting 1997-2001
    • Catherine's Pier 2017
    • Transform part one 2010
    • Looking for "tree in the sun" 2010
    • Blond Ambition 2008
    • Combat : Manual for daily survival original works 2003 -2008
    • Combat exhibition 2008
    • Mini video 2007, 2010
    • Paradise lost 2000, 2005
    • project propositions
      • Ecology & waste
      • Textile as a form of Cultural heritage & Community
  • Participate & Collaborate
    • Timelesshugs: August - December 2015
    • Timelesshugs: January - February 2016
    • Timelesshugs: Arles 2016
    • Timeless hugs: Bandstand
    • Combat in progress 2008
    • A-lien cuisine 2018
    • Aloha Phantasm 2015
    • Humility Quest 2014
    • one night in the gallery 2015
    • Mini dictionary of aqua-humility 2015
    • Slapping 2015
    • Slurp piece : Eat noodle or die 2015
    • I am humility 2015
  • Contact