MIKI NITADORI
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      • Transform origin 1895 - 1960
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  • About
  • Artist statement
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  • News / blah blah
  • Workshop & Conferences
  • Art Objects
    • A-lien Pacific 2018
    • Odyssey : reflect artist book 2014 - 2018
  • Exhibitions & Installations
    • Odyssey : Reflect Exhibition / Installation 2014-2020
    • Combat exhibition 2008
  • Visual works
    • Odyssey : reflect orginal works 2013 -2015
    • Gratitude 2017
    • Post-script 2013 - 2018
    • Blond Ambition 2008
    • Combat : Manual for daily survival original works 2003 -2008
    • Triumph 2004
  • Curatorial projects
  • Participative & community projects
    • Timelesshugs: August - December 2015
    • Timelesshugs: January - February 2016
    • Timelesshugs: Arles 2016
    • Timeless hugs: Bandstand
    • Combat in progress 2008
  • Interventions & collaborations
    • Tissu / Motifs Bethune-Bruay 2021
    • A-lien cuisine 2018
    • Aloha Phantasm 2015
    • Humility Quest 2014
    • I am humility 2015
    • one night in the gallery 2015
  • Written pieces
    • Mini dictionary of aqua-humility 2015
    • Slapping 2015
    • Slurp piece : Eat noodle or die 2015
  • Older works
    • Catherine's Pier 2017
    • Interface 2010
    • Transform part one 2010
      • Transform origin 1895 - 1960
    • Looking for "tree in the sun" 2010
    • Combat mini video 2007
    • water field 1997, 2007
    • Paradises lost 2000, 2005
    • seesaw spotting 1997-2001
  • project proposition
    • Ecology & waste
    • Textile as a form of Cultural heritage & Community
  • Research
Paradises lost , Polaroid 600, instant film camera, unique piece. 2000

Paradises lost

Daily for one month, I photographed with Polaroid 600 instant film.
These images trace fragmented memories, from childhood up to the present.
This is now a past which can be only found within.


People tell me that this place doesn't exist any more.
They say it changed and it isn't the way it used to be.

I wonder if it was like this when I took the photographs.
I wonder if it was ever the same for everyone, how they lived and how they had a relationship to the place.

Was it like this when we were children? Maybe.
My childhood memories were playing basketball, eating samin, feeling constantly alone, finding comfort only in older people and fearing getting beaten up by other girls. I cried out of joy when I got on the plane to leave this place, because I wouldn't have to live this reality any more. I learned here what it was to be an outsider. A different social structure existed, and living wasn't as I thought it would be.
However, I came back to this place more often than my native land, and it became a place where I found comfort both among my elders and alone.
I lived the most important moments of my life here, not only in my childhood but also in adulthood. When I was dragging my body, barely able to stand on my feet, coming back to this place healed me. When my soul was profoundly within a hard shell and could not face tomorrow, the nature in silence, physically healed me. 
Daily I see, feel and long for this place that only exists in my mind.
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  • Home
  • About
  • Artist statement
  • Contact
  • News / blah blah
  • Workshop & Conferences
  • Art Objects
    • A-lien Pacific 2018
    • Odyssey : reflect artist book 2014 - 2018
  • Exhibitions & Installations
    • Odyssey : Reflect Exhibition / Installation 2014-2020
    • Combat exhibition 2008
  • Visual works
    • Odyssey : reflect orginal works 2013 -2015
    • Gratitude 2017
    • Post-script 2013 - 2018
    • Blond Ambition 2008
    • Combat : Manual for daily survival original works 2003 -2008
    • Triumph 2004
  • Curatorial projects
  • Participative & community projects
    • Timelesshugs: August - December 2015
    • Timelesshugs: January - February 2016
    • Timelesshugs: Arles 2016
    • Timeless hugs: Bandstand
    • Combat in progress 2008
  • Interventions & collaborations
    • Tissu / Motifs Bethune-Bruay 2021
    • A-lien cuisine 2018
    • Aloha Phantasm 2015
    • Humility Quest 2014
    • I am humility 2015
    • one night in the gallery 2015
  • Written pieces
    • Mini dictionary of aqua-humility 2015
    • Slapping 2015
    • Slurp piece : Eat noodle or die 2015
  • Older works
    • Catherine's Pier 2017
    • Interface 2010
    • Transform part one 2010
      • Transform origin 1895 - 1960
    • Looking for "tree in the sun" 2010
    • Combat mini video 2007
    • water field 1997, 2007
    • Paradises lost 2000, 2005
    • seesaw spotting 1997-2001
  • project proposition
    • Ecology & waste
    • Textile as a form of Cultural heritage & Community
  • Research